I’ve come a long way in my faith and my beliefs since high school.
I was heavily influenced by the conservative, immigrant fundamental-esque beliefs.
I no longer think I’m there any more. I hesitate to use the words “evolve” or “progress” because that’s denoting that those beliefs are not quite — well — “evolved.” And that’s not fair to those who firmly stand in their beliefs — many of whom are dear people to me.
But there is a stark difference from who I was 10 years ago (entering seminary) and who I am today — for better or worse.
And I feel the constant need to grow; to explore; to question; to discern; to prove; to research; to debunk; to embrace; to learn; to test etc, when it comes to God and my faith.
Of course, this can lead me to sway with the wind; or embrace whatever the theological flavor of the month may be for that season.
So I had to lay out some non-negotiables when it comes to my faith and beliefs.
There are more, but those are just a few of the bigger things.
I started thinking of these things because of conversations with folks I had in Seattle. During that week, I also finished reading Revival by Adam Hamilton where he writes
The evangelical gospel without the social gospel becomes spiritual narcissism; the social gospel without the evangelical gospel fails to address the root problem of the human condition and leaves us without the power to be transformed and renewed by Christ (pg 117).
I was reminded of how much we try to make it an “either/or” game. If you’re an evangelist, you’re not going to be concerned about social justice. If you’re all for social justice, you’re more an advocate than a believer. Of course that’s a general statement.
But it’s funny how many times I’ve been asked, “How can you think that way?” as if I’m supposed to subscribe to one line of thought (and many argue that I should).
I realize that my world views are still changing and growing. And personally, I find it hard to hold onto the same beliefs I’ve had since I was 16 when everything else about me has changed since 16. The core of my beliefs will always remain the same(my non-negotiables) but I enjoy being challenged with new thoughts whether I agree with them or not, because it forces me to think about why I do agree with them or why I cannot agree.
I’m not the smartest person in the room. I don’t think I’ll ever be. And I’m okay with that. In fact, I’d be more concerned if I was the smartest person in the room. But, God gave me a brain and I — for the most part — enjoy using it.